Office by Alex Penny
where i go?
day 15 complete.
Doing something small everyday that you feel is good for you will not save your life. It will not make all your troubles go away. It may not even make any of them go away. Not in every moment anyways.
The day is long. I meditated for 11 minutes this morning. During those 11 minutes I felt pretty peaceful. That leaves about 1,429 other minutes to deal with until I meditate again tomorrow. That’s a lot of minutes to deal with. They can go any direction. Up, down, laterally. In a circle. Erratically non-linear. Steady and straight. Forwards, backwards, a jump ahead or falling behind. Forwards again, then backwards again. Stuck in reverse. Or maybe even in some dimension we don’t understand that only quantum computers can comprehend.
Point is there’s a lot of possibility there in the day, and it ain’t ever gonna be all sorted out because of one good habit. A small bit of the day I’ve tried to fix in place as a consistent bulwark against the oppressive forces of uncertainty. At the end of the day, the many small victories and defeats are probably gonna outweigh whatever I managed to accomplish in the first 11 minutes of this day.
Damn, that’s rough sometimes. There is no practice, no matter how dedicated, how consistent, how many minutes you devote to it, that’s gonna solve all the problems of the day. What the crap. Somebody should’ve told me this.
“But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth”
Take it away Coldplay. You may not satisfy the music snobs of the world, but right now I’m just looking for a light to guide me home. I don’t care if its sentimental, over the top, or predictable. Oh, its all three? Even better.
